Friday, March 29, 2013

I just need to vent! or bitch!

I'm so something right now. I guess the word is fed up. We have been having a slow running drain. So, I decided in my wisdom to do deal with it on a Good Friday when everything is closed until probably Tuesday. Four boxes of baking soda, several hours of this and Drano and the drains are real messed the f%k up. Flush the toilet now and it backs in the shower. Drain the tub the toilet bubbles. Run the kitchen sink and it is the only thing that drains slowly. I'm literally up shit creek.

While, I'm sweating my butt off with boiling kettles of water and various chemicals J is just happily clicking away of facebook. I say could you getting the fecking dogs out of my way. They are going to get burned by boiling water. Could you possible maybe give me a hand. Oh hell no. The problem is every problem in this house is my problem. Because insert excuse J has . I'm tired and pmsing like nobodies business. Which just makes me more vocal.    J has also been manic as hell. Mouthy out in public . I deal with it by saying please stay in the car. Or go find somewhere to seat out of the publics way. It is embarrassing when a person has no filters out in public and says rude things about children and etc. Even if it is valid which it is most people only have bubble thoughts it doesn't actually come out of their mouths. Top that off with J cutting back smoking which probably triggered this wonderful mood. J has took up a government programme to stop smoking . It last 6 months. It is moving slowly. If I say anything negative about this , I'm not being supportive. So, I keep it to myself. The problem is I have to keep everything to myself. It just stresses J out to hear money problems   , any problem  really. The puppy is also my problem also. The puppy really bonded to me so the excuse is I don't have to do anything because that dog choose you. It is both our dog and both our responsibility.

As, you can see it is just one fight after another lately. I need a vacation away from everybody . I need a break from J also. Will I get one. No. I'm trying to work on an idea to send J to visit J's parents. Leave me for a couple of days to deal with that mess also. It wouldn't be until next month though. It also doesn't help that we are going to probably have to pay for a plumbing problem again. I have so had it with our plumbing and water problems. I think I should own stock in the plumbers company. Over the past 5 years we have replaced a whole water system, all pipes in the bathroom , kitchen also winter related freezing problems in the pump house with busted pipes. Had the whole backyard dug up last year for a busted pipe. That was fun having a backhoe in the backyard and had the whole line dug up. I can hear myself growling in my head. It is like a plumbing gremlin. To be fair everything was real old and just happened to go at a fairly steady rate. No upgrades have been made in 20-25 years.  It doesn't feel any better though having to fork the money out at a fairly steady rate though. It just seems in the past 6-7 years everything has went at once. Get out of one jam get into another. It is just life though. I tell myself that to make it feel better. But really it is just life. Sometimes, life really sucks and isn't fair. The thing is I deal with it and move on. I just was hoping to have an incident free spring.

5 comments:

  1. That's so awful! Glad to read to the end where you say "...deal with it and move on." I'm sorry things are going this way for you, but it's good that you keep plugging along.

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  2. Vent all you need! I, too well, know of which you write....

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  3. We all need to vent or bitch at times...........it helps us deal with life doesn't it.......

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  4. Wow! You have a lot going on!!! I know how hard it is to deal with a loved one who has a mental illness. I think that with all that you are dealing with between J and the house breaking down at points also, you have every right to feel the way you do. Hormones NEVER help. I can tell you are a strong person. As much as you are feeling negative, you are surviving and doing the best you can. You aren't giving up. I think there's something to be said for that. I'm not sure what the solution to all of this is, or what's going to happen in the future, but I would just encourage you to hang in there, take it moment by moment, one thing at a time, and remind yourself that you are strong enough to handle this. And vent to your blog as much as you can! This is a great outlet for you.

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  5. Wow! You've done all that work on your plumbing and still have those kind of plumbing issues? I'd be so mad, too! All of that is a lot on your plate! This is exactly why I have my blog as well, to get it all out - the good, the bad, but mostly the ugly. I hope things get less stressful for you - big hugs!!!!

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