Friday, December 30, 2011

Running into the New Year

I'm sitting here with my SAD lamp on. It works pretty well and pretty fast when I'm struggling with depression. I have to cut back the times on the lamp or it makes me hyper. I really don't need to be hyper. My energy levels have been so low since I have had the flu and other aggravations.

I'm slowly very slowly sorting out the house. I haven't done much as I have been sick. I have had a time of getting my new treadmill that I ordered back in October also. They lead me on for two months then said it was never going to be available. Took the money before shipping or anything else and told me I would have to wait 30 days to get it back. Well, this didn't sit well with me and nicely and assertive I told them they would give me something similar as to the one I ordered since at the time I ordered everything was on sale and now what I want or anything similar wasn't on sale. I was very angry. I looked at the bank account today and the money was back. I called Sears again made them give me a similar product for what I purchased the other one for. I'm happy now. It was driving me nuts when none of it was going right. I have always wanted a treadmill. I really would love to start walking and jogging no matter what the weather is and I think I will actually stick to it every day until it gets a little warmer to do it outdoors. I'm not a big fan of winter running. I also need the stress relief of walking or running when I'm consumed with anxiety. It works faster than a pill.

I'm really looking forward to next year and it can't get here fast enough. I really feel like it is going to be a better year as it is starting to look up already. The chaos of this house will be here for awhile but it now seems not so overwhelming for today. I'm hoping to get something done no matter how little it is.


  1. Ooo. That's exciting. You know, I wonder about those SAD lamps sometimes. I wonder if I should get one.

    I wish you lots of treadmill happiness for next year, and lots of other happiness too.

    :-) P xx

  2. I love my Sad Lamp. It is real compact. You can make it go for 10 minutes up to 30 minutes. One thing is I have to be careful with it as it acts just like an anti-depressant without all the awful side-effects but can make you manic if you use the light to much. It really helps with more energy and just over all well-being. We have not much natural light in the winter at times. I finally have been learning just the right amount not to send me over the edge. It is about 10 minutes a day now. The best thing is you can always stop it or resume it.

  3. My therapist says I should get one of those lamps. I don't know....but I am even more depressed when there is no sunshine. And let me tell you, there has been so little sunshine in the past two months I just want to go to bed and pull the covers over my head.